Retrospect

I remember the time you left when you could have spent time with us.
I remember the time he got yelled at for his opinions.
I remember the time you hated my friends because they weren't like you.
I remember the time you admitted your mistakes. Your regrets.
I remember the time I discovered your lies.
I remember the time I was too afraid of punishment to voice how I felt.
I remember the time I grew up before I should have needed to.
I remember the time I wanted to stick my fingers down my throat because you told me I ate too much.
I remember the time I prayed the sadness would be gone.
I remember the times I was disappointed.
I remember the time you told me my mother was a liar.
I remember the time he hugged me for the first time in years.
I remember the time I first felt hatred.
I remember the time you lied and said you were proud of me because that's what everyone expected of you.
I remember the time you made me doubt God.
I remember the time I wanted to be free.
I remember the time I no longer looked up to you.

I remember the time I decided to let go.